It’s a small word, but a huge undertaking.
It’s not something you have today and continue to have without work.
It’s one of the things that I struggle with most.
Perhaps if I didn’t live a freelancer lifestyle, it would be easier.
Whatever the answer, I know that my priorities shift so fast that it leaves my head spinning at times.
I often hear people say they want to get their happy back. Thankfully, I think I keep a certain amount of my “happy” with me just based on the joy that I get from being able to pursue a career of my choosing, no longer being subject to what I have to do versus what I choose to do.
But, I think with that freedom, comes the flip side of choice – the burden. I’m totally responsible for my income and solely responsible for deciding which risks I take on a daily basis. What do I attach myself to? How far do I go on a project? And when people ask for help, what do I say?
And I think in my desire to help others, I allow myself to become unbalanced. Because when they ask a question, or “help” the answer or process is never as simple as it seems.
When I was a little girl, my mother often told me “you can’t save the world.” If she were alive today, I would ask her what she saw in me growing up that alerted her to my innate NEED to help everyone.
As I mature, I’m learning that saying no doesn’t mean that I don’t care. Saying no doesn’t mean that I don’t wish you well. No means no and nothing else.
Most of my challenge stems from being in the entertainment industry. What most don’t realize is the knowledge and relationships that I have did not happen over night through osmosis. This has been more than 25 years of life, learning and experiencing.
I saw a post on twitter yesterday which pretty much sums up how I feel: ”@AuthorJLFord 1 of the most hurtful things u can do is treat ppl like a resource when they are being more than a friend.”
So, today my goal is to work on balance. To say no to some things. To not worry if others think that I’m mean or less of a friend, because I CHOOSE to say no. To remove myself from burdensome obligations which threaten to stifle my creativity. And to STOP depriving myself, while helping others. I need to spend some time focusing on ME.
I’m going to weed out those things that would threaten to choke the beautiful flowers of creativity in my garden.
And I’m not going to complain any longer about people not realizing the value of my services. I’m going to start naming my price, without reservation.
Because I’m worth it! I’m on a journey to greatness and if I don’t make balance a priority now – everything I’ve built will come crashing down!
Make today a great day, ROCK STARS!